it seems like i'm screwing up my future. i don't want to end up regretting and wishing that i've studied harder. i feel blessed actually because a friend made me realise all of these. i don't know why i lost the passion to study. when i was a kid, i didn't play with all the kids at the playground, i was at the library alone, reading enid blyton books even though there were lots of words i didn't understand. i didn't own barbie dolls. basically, i spent my time, drawing.
and my dad bought me a computer when i was 9. i didn't have any computer games. he bought me educational games. i still have them. hahas. i would cry if i wasn't the top 3 in my class. i would cry if i get a bloody band 2 for any subjects. i would not sleep till i solve a freaking maths problem sum. i was really a freak. hahahas.
and then i changed. oh wells, i've changed so much that perhaps some people wouldn't believe that im like that when i was young. NOW: i don't even care when i fail. i don't even care if i'm the bottom 3 in class. i laughed when i got straight Us for my h2 subjects.
seriously, no wonder, my mum's so disappointed with me. i feel as though it's too late for everything.
why the hell did i change?
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